Prodigal

Just give me what's mine and then leave me alone
I don't need you anyway

I don't want you or your charity
I just want the spoils
Wealth
Success
Reputation
Sex
Family

Just give it to me and leave me alone
Don't ask anything from me
I don't owe you anything
Leave me alone

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God, this is great
What a waste of time you were
Now I have (almost) all l I ever wanted and
Didn't have to give anything for it

Just a few more things
Just a few more and
then I'll be satisfied

You'll see

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It's harder than I thought
But I'll make this work
I know I can

Just a little more self-control and
discipline and
reading and
listening and
learning and
note-taking and
then I'll have it down

You'll see

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What happened
Everything was going so well

This is all your fault

You didn't give me enough
You rigged the stakes against me
You won't take temptations away
I bet it's a fun game for you
Watching this

But I'll come out on top
Just a little longer
Just a little more

You'll see

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Oh God, what have I done
Look at me

I'm broke
washed up
cast down
filthy
alone

What have I done
Oh God
Look at what I've done
Look at
what
I've done

Look at these
Unclean lips
Bloody rags of
counterfeit righteousness

Damned

Can't talk to you
be with you
look at you

You'll see

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Last-ditch shot
I can't fix it
Any of it

But maybe
Maybe I can wash your feet
Clean your house
Tend your crops
Feed your pigs
Care for your cattle

Just make me a
slave
lowly
marginalized

Just give me a
place to rest
scraps from your table
shelter

And I'll do whatever you want

It's too late for me
to be a son again

But maybe I
can find my
way back

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Dust from the road caked
on my
bloody
bare feet

Wheezing
Half-blind

I can see you already
Your house
Your crops
Blurry

What

You're

Moving
Running

To me

Oh my God

What are you doing
Throwing your
arms around me
Kissing me
Your tears of
joy
flowing

What's this
ring
coat
shoes
calf

What's this
white robe for this your
whore
bastard son

adopted back
as
heir

It can't be
This is too much to
understand
take in
appreciate
pay back

I can't do it

But you
promise
you can

and now

I'll see