Learnin'

I'm learning a lot right now, but three big things in particular:

1. Prayer. I do not pray enough, and we totally underestimate the power of prayer - not because our prayers somehow make things happen out of our own power, but because God is good and God delights in His children taking time to talk to Him and ask things of Him. He delights in giving to us the desires of our hearts when we delight ourselves continually in Him.

It is amazing to me how quickly things start to happen when you dedicate yourself to prayer in a serious way, laying things before the Lord and asking that His perfect will be done with them. As CS Lewis writes, "we are far too easily pleased" and we so often fail to just ASK God about the things that are on our hearts. So often I catch myself worrying about things that I should be praying about. I'll worry and worry and try to think of solutions rather than just starting with prayer. Why does it take so long to get this? I must have a really thick head. Thank God that God is patient.


2. Rest, work/life balance, and the size of your plate. I have made a habit out of leaving the office no more than 9 hours after walking into it for weeks now, and I cannot tell you all what a difference it has made. I leave a ton undone each day and yet I am totally at peace about it because I'm realizing how much richer life is when you take the time to do things other than work - like rest, connect with people, develop new skills, and cast vision for where you're going with this big thing we call life. Far too easy to get caught up in the day-to-day slog and lose sight of the mission God has us on. It's important to continually seek solitude and prayer, and that's not something I do enough.

Rest. I mean REAL rest - not laying on the couch watching tube. I mean really, truly refreshing rest. Reading a book outside in the sunshine on a summer day. Spending some time in prayer and journaling. Reading your Bible. Getting together with friends for a low-key evening of time together. Too often our "rest" is nothing more than just physical downtime, and they're not synonymous.

I'm also learning the importance of knowing the size of your plate and filling it accordingly. First, know how much you really CAN do or be involved in - how much free time and energy you REALLY have. Then use your time and energy wisely and to God's glory. This means taking some things off your plate and putting others on - but most importantly, when you put something on the plate, something else has to come off. Always. This is a hard one for me to learn. I recently stepped down from the Prayer Team at church, and it was a difficult decision to make, but I am confident it was the right one. I am able to focus more mental energy, more of my spiritual giftings - and more prayer - on the things that really need them right now, like Community Group and Theology Response Team.


3. Strategic Chaos. Sometimes it is necessary as a leader to create strategic chaos. This means allowing things to break down in a certain area or allowing a need to be felt and seen in order to force your troops to rally. I tend to be the type that, when a need is seen or felt, will just step in and fill it because it needs to be done. I am learning this is one of the worst things you can do to yourself - it drains you, exhausts you, and causes burnout. In order to lead effectively, you have to know when to step in and when to step back and say, "I need to let someone else step up to the plate here." That means being OK with it if no one DOES step up to the plate, in which case God is probably trying to tell your team something.

Trying to do it all yourself is nothing more than yet another form of pride masked as "get it done"-ness. I know that I am all too often afraid to let the system break down because I don't want it to reflect badly on me. But it's not about me, and ultimately God is in control of the system. He will do with it what He pleases.