jump into my nightmare - the water's warm!

It's that time of the semester where, instead of ebbing and flowing normally throughout the week, everything starts to hit the fan all at once, so it becomes difficult to even catch up, let alone actually get ahead. Like I said, I'm oddly unstressed this semester, but I am bored. And tired of school.

This weekend is the Honors Devils retreat, which I think will be a good time. But its timing isn't fantastic, since I have a test next week and I haven't even finished all the chapters yet. Not to mention that I'm behind in Finance and Legal Studies. And Supply Chain. And Management.

To add to my misery, I went in to pay my citation today (yes, I got a ticket. To make a long story short, don't ever take glass bottles into a public park). To my utter shock, the ticket cost an outrageous $250. I don't think speeding tickets even cost that much. I would have fought it but - to make another long story short - I would definitely have lost. So while the punch hurts, it's probably the best solution.

I tried to do some studying today but I just don't have the jam anymore. I'm tired, I'm bored, and I'm just plain frustrated with life's monotony right now. There are very few things going well (actually I can't think of one that is). My grades aren't stellar and I'm having a tough time just staying on top of everything. I'm starting to severely question the wisdom in taking 25 credit hours next semester.

Often when I talk to people about stuff like this they tell me, "Well, that's just the way life is. It's crazy sometimes." And you know what? I think that's bull. I think life is only as crazy as you choose to make it, and it just so happens that our society loves running at the speed of light and not taking time out to actually enjoy life anymore. And I for one have decided this is not my bandwagon. I want off. We all look down on those "crazies" who live out on communes in the wilderness or those tribes in Africa that are living in what we think is the stone age - but have you ever thought that maybe we're the crazy ones? E-mail, cell phones, computers, deadlines, meetings - they're great things, but who really needs them? I swear, sometimes I think the Amish are on to something.

The only thing keeping me alive right now is the knowledge that in just under 3 weeks I get to go home to Seattle for the short respite that will be Thanksgiving. All I can say is that it's going to be one heckuva relief to get on the plane, stick my iPod in my ear, and just sit back and leave godforsaken Phoenix behind for four days. Good riddance.